Pillow Thoughts Are NOT My Friends!

I cant seem to sleep AGAIN... I have so much on my mind I can't even think straight.... top two nerve rackers... My MIL has her biopsy tomorrow morning and I'm worried about the Bestie Manda, nothing seems to be going right in her household right now. And those are just two really big things. There's another HUGE one, but because I have yet to figure out who's going to follow me and read what I'm writing, for my mother's sake I will keep my finger from typing that one. then there are smaller issues adding to the ciaos in my brain. I'm so physically and emotionally spent but when my head hits the pillow, I just start to think and thinking my friends is very very bad in my case!!!

My MIL, mother-in-law, found out a few weeks back that she had eight, yes you heard correctly EIGHT, tumors in her uterus and cyst on her ovaries. They scheduled her biopsy for tomorrow morning at 9:45 and her hysterectomy for Aug.10Th. They said weather or not the tumors are cancerous or not if she doesn't have a full hysterectomy she will still be at risk for not having long in this world. Oh, I should probably mention she was having server bleeding and periods every fourteen days, which is why she went into the Dr.s to begin with. The other night she called me screaming in pain, she at that point had already taken her pain pills, and asked me to take her in to the E.R. Well when we were there they ran another ultrasound and some tests, there are two more tumors in just two and a half weeks... Bringing the total to TEN, yep my MIL has ten small tumors in her uterus. They also said that one of her cyst burst which is why even with pills she was still in excruciating pain. I'm no Dr., but if I'm not mistaken the tumors spreading and multiplying that fast means there cancerous. Tomorrow the biopsy then to wait it out for the results.... NERVES ARE AFFRAY!

My Bestie, Manda, where to begin? 23 living back under mommy's roof again... not any one's dream that i know, especially not hers! She is constantly being threatened that there going to kick her out if she doesn't start helping around there... last I checked shes like the little slave there! Her cat went missing, yea there are tons of cats at her house but hers was HERS and she's had him for like nine years. Snowball, "Balls," was on his last life, if the saying "cats have nine lives" is true, Balls was on his like twelfth. I take her on a road trip and he's gone when she gets home. As much as we want to believe a good home took him in, we all know he went off to the white light alone. AND if that's not bad enough, her pit bull shes had for like six years was murdered yesterday by the tweekers in the neighborhood to help them gain access to the yard undetected. This theory has not been proven but how does a perfectly healthy young dog just drop dead? And while barring her the neighbors came to let them know there dog did the same thing three days ago! I'm here in Vegas, she's in Purumph... just an hour drive away and needing me only thing is... my car is down right now (one of the smaller things bugging the crap out of me). I cant help her from here and as much as she tells me she's fine and changes topic, I know differently! How? I'm her BESTIE... enough said!

I wish I could touch the subject of my mother more then this little bit here, but I promised not to tell anyone for fear it will get back to her parents! But since I'm sure my mom will be reading this, I love you deeply BUT you need help! You need to suck up your pride and put everything out on the table! You wouldn't be feeling so much like you are if you would just tell someone! Shit, Mom, start a freaking blog! SOMETHING! But I will promise you this if you don't start talking to someone soon, and I mean SOON, I am going to take things into my own hands! I LOVE YOU GET SOME FREAKING HELP!!!!!!!!!!

OK, so now I have vented some! feeling a little better. But a little is not even a dent in what stress I have been dealing with!!!!!!